New moon

Just as I watched the movie “Twilight” I can’t get enough of it. How I wish I could have a copy of those books but it’s so expensive huh!?! Maybe someday when it’s on sale! (Hehehe). A friend of mine bought the “Twilight Saga” edition in amazon.com I’m the one who’s very excited!. Yesterday the books arrived, when I received her text I ran downstairs to see it. I felt so excited like as if I owned it! Hahaha! I was so amazed that moment when I finally touched it and told myself “this is it!” She lend me the “new moon” which is the second book, since I’ve already red the first one in the computer (one of my officemate which is a “fanpire” too sent me a copy). Right then when I got home I started reading it, once you begin flipping up the pages you can’t stop yourself from reading it, every pages are worth to read. While I’m reading it I visualized Edward, Bella and rest of the cast in my head as if they are real! (Wish I could be Brendan Fraser in “Inkheart” where when he read stories it became to life,) I end up reading around 2am. I forbid myself to flip the next page; I might not sleep that day! As of now I’m in the 2nd chapter which is the “Stitches”. Thanks to my little mamma’ lirz! For lending me this book! Because of this novel I became a bookworm!..hehehe…love it!

Reality check!

just this very day February 14, 2009 at 2:57 pm… i woke from a dream which i know will never come true… maybe “bro” let this thing happen for me to see the reality of life. At first i know it’s wrong but I keep on doing the same thing just to let myself happy. just last night  I asked myself the real thing that’s inside me, Is it true? that I’m falling for him, or it’s just infatuation that I’m making fool of. I don’t know but why it hurts me? what i saw?…. Its really crazy having a stupid HEART!… a stupid FEELINGS!… I don’t know what to do to stop it!… I don’t know where to start… I felt like crying for a nonsense thing…I don’t know where to focus my mind when it’s him that’s inside my head keep torturing my senses…. I’ve got to do something to stop this!…. ( ang tanga tanga ko talaga!!!!)….

falling out of love….

tomorrow is heart’s day, many are celebrating it with their love ones, some are with there friends. but me.. i prefer to celebrate it with “bro”… since i don’t have a boyfriend!.. fallin in love…hhmm… when was the last time i felt that feeling?.. the butterfly in your stomach,the absent minded thing… i don’t know…. the past relationship i had made my heart numb and hard, i even forgot how true love really works. well, some admiration i guess… but not falling in love too much again… I’m afraid to be left alone and not being loved in return… I’m tired sacrificing some things, to stay strong for the relationship. i even fall for the wrong person, it’s killing me!… well enough of it! for all those who had someone beside them for tomorrow may you have the sweetest and happy heart’s day!…… I love you all!!!……

twilight fever!

i saw the movie trailer of this movie while watching some shows, i didn’t mind it all since it didn’t attract me. then i saw the big poster at megamall i wonder why they say its the best seller novel. my officemate and i search it in the internet specially in youtube to know more facts about it. then we tried to watch it at the gateway, because some says its a nice movie. i was very starstruck when we finished watching it! as in oh my gosh!! robert pattinson who played edward cullen in the movie is so hot!.. and i can’t believe that he’s in the movie harry potter too! the friend of harry who died there. kirsten is perfectly fit to play as bella. i love every part of the movie. i even asked my officemate to give me a copy of the remaining three novel, newmoon, eclipse and breaking dawn. i’m waiting for the next release of the
movie…. i love twilight! and i love EDWARD CULLEN!!!!….

edward and bella

Is it Over?…

I had this crazy morning of DEC 2 2008 at exactly 1:30am, i just finish watching the movie
” serendipity” because a friend ask a favor for me to watch it  for her reaction
paper. i tried to look in the internet for some e-book about the movie then i suddenly
checked out my friendster account, a thing came up in my mind the face of shidoney.
I opened my other account where his sister is on my friends list.
i checked out his account to see his recent pictures,just to know how he is.
its been i guess two years since the very last time i saw him. physically he changed a bit, he cut off his hair,
he’s a bit chubby right now. as i looked up his picture a tear fell in my eye and suddenly felt the feeling
of missing someone…. i don’t know why… i can see in his eyes that he’s happy and contented but then
while lookin’ in his eyes i remember a question he asked ” how can you say that iam happy?” the question that
i never answered. because i don’t know the answer.   i guess i should be contented with that,hes happy.. but why am i crying?. what for?
i shouldn’t have this feeling, he hurt me a lot that makes my heart bleed to death. is it because its just my mind that saying its over
but my heart keeps on refusing? maybe because my heart still holding on though the chances are very little, still hoping that someday he’ll be back.
the question is until when?…when will my heart accept the truth that he’s no longer gonna be back… i hope i could deal with this
feelin’… maybe its the reason why iam still in this shell where i can get out…

23 years of me….

23yrs of my life i have always been walkin and running through..
lookin’ for where i should stand, reaching for my goal, walkin’ through
darkness and beyond my future. until now i can’t say that i already
reach the end of the road. i still dont see the meaning of my life, im still lookin for that
road,where i should go and find the right path for me. through the years
of my life i’ve already seen the different kinds of living.. how to live
to breathe,when to give up,when to hold on.. i counquered and defeat each sorrow and pain with the
help of my family, they where my strength. they are the most important people in my life, without them
im nothing. somtimes  i asked myself what is my purpose? why did god choose me to live? what could be the reason why im still alive?
why am i here?. as i grow older and older im still lookin’ for the answers to all of the questions that runnin’ in my head.
hope to see the end of the road and be all of my questions be answered before i got tired of running and walkin’ through
the path of living….

funny feeling!!!!

Funny how love really works! I had this somethin’ somethin’ that makes me smile everytime I think about it. I dunno how it starts but I knew this was really funny. I had this feeling for someone that I knew was wrong from the very start, I dunno its just happen one day. I saw him again after a very long time, because he’s work send him in other place. Actually he’s one of my boss’s, he change a lot the last time i saw him he’s thin and not that cute one. But then from that day I noticed that he’s body complex became buff and for me its so sexy!. Hahaha!.. I told my officemates that I had a crush on him! like one of a teenage drama! As of now im still in this craziness thing I feel. Everytime I see him I feel that butterfly in my stomach, then I smiled alone. Hopely it will end soon before this infatuation I feel became real that can make my self hurt again…