Silliness…
After a very long time, we meet again in one rainy afternoon of June… at first I can’t believe that, that day would come. Then I saw him sitting there waiting for us, I don’t know how will I react! My heart just stop beatin’ for a second and it feels like I’m havin’ a heart attack!. I wanted to hug him and tell him how much I missed him. I wanted to cry for I have this so much happiness seeing him again. I can’t help myself but stare at his face and keep on smiling inside. I keep on saying that I have moved on and that I already forgotten what ever it is that I feel for him, but I was wrong! It’s not enough for me to forget him. I thought I’m done with crying over him and I thought that his words won’t hurt me anymore. But it gotten worst, when I heard him sayin’ that all of his relationships were wrong I felt my heart burning and tore into pieces. I can’t look straight into his eyes because my tears are about to burst. IT REALLY HURTS ME!. I wanted to slap him and just walked out! But I can’t! I tried to hide the pain by just listening to him and not saying a thing. If your askin’ why you? Why it’s you that I love?.. I REALLY DON’T KNOW?!! If I can teach myself not to love you I’LL BE GLAD TO DO THAT! Coz I’m tired of it… “PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKONG MAHALIN KA”… The moment we held on the taxi cab, I can’t control my tears from fallin’ thinking what he have said… “ANG SAKIT SAKIT… SOBRA!”. I keep on askin why?.. Why are you doin’ this to me? Maybe you really don’t love me… Or at least you tried… after all those years I was just havin’ those illusions that you ONCE CARED AND LOVED ME!. You only used me for your own sake. I’m too good for you… That’s what they say… Maybe they’re right I’M REALLY TOO GOOD FOR YOU… You don’t deserve SOMEONE LIKE ME!!..
