a “father’s day” agony….
Summer days are gone,now its time to rain!. June is the first month of rainy season and also back to school!. On this month we celebrate our independence day. And of course “father’s day”. Whenever this day came I had these mix emotions. Happy for all the children who had their father with them, sad for I have none. Throughout my childhood days I often asked my self why I don’t have a father to call on to. Well, I can say that I’m still lucky to have a grandfather who took care of me from birth to childhood ness and a stepfather who gave me unconditional love and fill the emptiness in my life of not having my true father beside me. Having a broken family while your growing up is hard, because you know that you are responsible of your own life. Whenever I see a complete family I can’t help myself to get jealous hoping that somehow I could feel that feeling of being around with those people that I love most. When my mom and my stepfather got separated I asked god why these things happen? Don’t I have the right to have a father? Am I not worthy to have a complete family? I often cried and searched for the answer to all my questions. The only two men in my life who gave me love that no one can compare are too far from me, most specially my grandfather. I love my grandfather very much though I am not showy I know that he feels it. It really broke my heart when he died last year, it feels like the world stop from turning and the skies are falling. Seeing him not breathing makes my heart stop beating. Until now, I can’t get out of that scene losing one of the most important person in my life.
For those who still had their father and grandfather cherish every moment you spend with them, show them how you really love them, let them feel your love, never hesitate to say “I love you” if you really mean it. Not just to our father but to all of the people we love, for their isn’t a lifetime for us to spend to everyone we care about and we love. Learn to Forgive and forget…
Happy Father’s day to every dad in the whole world!!!
